FIVE SIMPLE RULES FOR HAPPINESS :
- Free your heart from hatred.
- Free your mind from worries.
- Live simply.
- Give more.
- Expect less.
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Nerine Nichelle
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Hello there!
It has been 22 days since I'm home. It has not been a month yet.
I gotta admit it. I miss KML so badly. You know why?
There are so many memories made over there.
And you know, sometimes I always have the thoughts of reliving those memories but obviously that is highly impossible.
Time machine doesn't exists.
There is a reason why God doesn't let the creation of time machine happened.
Because the past is meant to be the past. There isn't any way to be in the past except that we can learn something from it .. especially lessons and mistakes.
There is something that I want.
I wanted a perfect ending but deep inside, I know perfect doesn't exists. Now I've learned the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. I'm supposed to collect and keep memories, not things.
Aisehman! Why am I being emo all of the sudden? Hahahahah. :P
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Hello! It seems like this blog has been on hiatus for a very long time. Hahah. I didn't have any idea on what I should post here. So, I shall think of something as a quick entry over here.
For the past few months, I was not in Kuching. I was far, far away ... well, it isn't that far. Hahaha. I've been in an island. An island called Labuan which is considered as the Federal Territory by the Malaysian government.
Semester 2 was really awesome. Organic Chemistry was playing games with my heart and brain. Mathematics was killing my brain cells. Biology was being nice to me. Computer Science was messing around with my heart.
I've been back in Kuching for GOOD since a few days ago. My family picked me up at the airport and had our supper at BDC right away. Haha. My sisters were being funny. When they saw me at the arrival hall after I've claimed my luggage, they hugged me so tightly and I felt like I got squeezed. They said they have not seen my face in a long time. Hahah!
You know what really made me smile and made my day?
Having that one last conversation on the phone before I'm back to my hometown.
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Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many time I've sat in my room and cried, how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've had to hold back the tears, how many times I've felt like I'm about to snap but I don't just for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head whenever I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody knows me but me and God.
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I have no idea what has gotten into me. I don't wanna miss a thing is currently on my iTunes now. Yeah, the famous soundtrack from the movie Armageddon sang by Aerosmith. It's one of my all-time favorite old school songs. You may think that I have a weird sense of music but i think that old school songs are awesome. These songs ... they give me that nostalgic feeling, making me to have those flashback moments at the back of my mind. Looking back at the past and it suddenly makes me feel like, yeah, these memories are made.
And these memories are meant to be kept, and remembered for the rest of our lives.
LOL! I'm actually feeling quite ... sad.
I think I can imagine myself shedding my tears after the finals in this place.
I do not love this place.
I LOVE THE PEOPLE WHOM I MET HERE. People from different walks of life.
People who gave me that friendship bond that I will never ever forget.
People whom I have shared every part of my happiness with.
And that one person who has been in my mind since ... forever.
nichelle xx
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Who would have thought that I have 52 days to go until I'm home in Kuching? :)
and who would have thought that it has been 4 months I'm not home? :)
This can be one of the best experiences that I ever have. Having my FIRST Gawai celebration, FIRST Christmas Day, FIRST New Year's, FIRST Chinese New Year's and my FIRST birthday celebration without any of my family member around.
Hahaha. Life is ... amusing. Especially when you least expect them. Surprises... God indeed has the best plan for me. :)
Nichelle xx
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Now that I'm stronger, I have figured out how this world turns cold and breaks through my soul.
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I'm staring at the mess I made.
Seriously, you are the exact distraction I've been wanting to avoid all these while.
Why did you ever have to be one?
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It's half an hour to midnight, saying hello to 21st of January 2012. Twisting of digits, I must say.
I'm yawning.. and I still can't sleep.
Attitude.
Why did we have to be ignorant and awkward with each other?
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It's been a while. Wait, not really a while but months, probably years. I don't know. Screw my math.
Anyway, I hope I ain't too late to wish you a very happy new year 2012! Yeah, it's almost mid January. But who cares. Hahahah.
This blog of mine really has been hiatus for a very long time. I wonder who would even bother to read it. Probably they are thinking that I've been dead, but the fact is, I got a life to live. So get ready for updates.. NOW.
Like I said, I'm stuck in a matriculation college on an island. Yes, an island. Not Borneo Island though. Just a small island located near Sabah. My life has been pretty interesting lately. I have no regrets.
To be really frank, never in my life before this, I thought that I would be furthering my studies in matriculation. I have my own plans but my dad used to insist that I would go for Form 6. I thought of admitting into UiTM or SPA because SPA has offered me my dream job, which is to be a medical laboratory technologist. However, I gotta go through the interview first. So I did went for the interview but I have flunked it. It was all due to the fact that I cannot, mind the word, CANNOT, speak BAHASA MALAYSIA/ BAHASA MELAYU properly. I answered them in English instead. Such a bad, bad mistake. -.-
After thinking about all of these, maybe there's a reason why God didn't give me what i want. He gives me what I need instead. So if, I got the separa perubatan programme thingy at KSKB, I would missed all the fun that I need. If I knew how fun it is to be here, I would regret. Well, what I meant was fun studying, meeting new people, experiencing life that you thought you never would. I strongly believe that God definitely has the best plans, well prepared just for me. :)
I guess I've grown stronger ever since I'm here. I am able to be independent and I have proved to my family that I'm okay wherever I am, as long as I have a very strong trust in God. I always remind myself that I am not weak. The word ' giving up' does not exist in my dictionary.
I cannot deny the fact that I do miss home though. But home is far, far away from my sight. It's always stuck in my heart. AHAHAHA stuck . I cannot wait to get out from this place. I miss all the food that my mommy, my granny cooked. Especially my mommy's vegetable dishes. No one can beat her cooking skills ;)
I miss getting up every Sunday, being in kampung. Having my granny to knock my door telling me that it's time to wake up. I kept of saying that I need another 5 minutes of nap. yes, nap. Not sleep. And that 5 minutes will turn to 15 minutes. The next thing that usually happen is that my two little naughty sisters will get on my bed and screamed at my ears saying, ' NICHELLE, MOKAT MAI!' .
which means, nichelle, wake up in Bidayuh.
I miss my friends in Kuching. Everyone is getting busy and busier these days. Well, it's normal.
I miss all those good times we had. Laughing like it's nobody's business in class. Just being ourselves and not giving a damn what others think. Because we know, our laughter is contagious and infectious. ;) Kidding!
I miss attending First Friday mass service every first friday of the month back in school. I miss those practices that we had. Bring To This Table is the hymn that I would usually sing solo with the music band, having good friends as singers to harmonise the song with me. I still remember vividly, every first Thursday of the month, we'll be having practises at church. I would staying back and my mom is so kind enough to wait for me at church and send me food to eat for lunch.The church is just right next to my school, the usual waiting place after school.
So, my updates are boring? If you do not think so, then tune in for the next one. ;)
Love, Nichelle. xo